So it's Monday, my first day back at college after Christmas break. Of course my first class had to be human sexuality where all we talked about was young mothers and unplanned pregnancies. I thought school would be a great way to take my mind off of this for at least a little while but it seems like it's going to be harder than I thought!
Everyone's already making plans to go out tonight and it's going to be a little difficult to explain why I'm not drinking or smoking. I never really considered "peer pressure" an issue before because I always thought I was able to make decisions on my own but until now I didn't realize how often people would just put a drink in my hand or offer me a cigarette or want to get high. It's easy not to think about it when you don't have people talking about it constantly.
I have always been a waitress; it's been the fastest way to make money to put myself through school (I'm a Respiratory Therapy student at Algonquin College). The downfalls however, are very much a part of the lifestyle: late hours, drinking, smoking, and partying. Since I found out about the pregnancy, I've tried my best to keep in touch with everyone and go out as much as I can still, but people seem offended when I don't want a drink and that really surprised me. I guess I should have expected it though, I'm sure I've responded the same way to many others. I never understood before why people lost so many friends during a pregnancy but I'm beginning to see why. People are so caught up in their lifestyles that they don't care. If you can no longer participate in their way of life, they're not going to make the effort to be around you. It's unfortunate.
